Wednesday, May 20, 2009

A Man's Gotta Do Whatta Man's Gotta Do

I have NEVER believed this, believe it is meaningless. What is it, a John Wayne thing? He was an actor. I've seen him on TV.
Much prefer Clint Eastwood. That movie based on the life of John Wesley Hardin, or Harding. Whichever. Where he shot people dead and then spit on them. Awesome.

John Wesley Hardin was a misguided Texan Confederate survivor trying to buck history. I could wikipedia it, but my recollection is he was not executed but rather died in a silly gun battle after a bit of incarceration. Hated the carpetbaggers, I know. Which irks me, since I am one.

But what does that mean? that expression..... Nothing. A man doesn't have to do anything. A man has to do stuff in order to achieve goals.
And sometimes a man (I've discovered this recently) is completely, I mean completely, without the means to some ends.

For instance if somebody doesn't love you, oh well. Or if somebody is too afraid to do a right thing, nothing will budge them except -- now note this exception --- an even worse fear. We all, at some time or other, lack the courage of our convictions. But I am toying with this idea of "a greater fear."

I think it is my only hope.

I know you crave more detail. Let me try an example. Pretty easy actually. The parachute concept. No way Hozay you're gonna jump out of a plane. But wait, the plane is on fire! How long would you hesitate? Not even a minute.

Similarly, you believe that if you (another example) leave your job, you will not find another. You will not be able to pay your bills, etc etc. I actually had this worry in 1980. Then I dealt with the torture of being too afraid to leave my miserable (to me, prestigious to others) job by taking so many pills and drinking so much that my liver got really enlarged and leaving/quitting the job just happened. When I awoke, I had a new life. The money and jobs came. I smiled. My liver shrank back down. Life got pretty good. Really good actually.

A man's gotta do.....pills and booze. Is the moral.