Stupid? I don't think....so....

I feel that I am brilliant or utterly stupid regarding the following: Emotions.
What the hell@#$%^&*(? What are they for? God in his infinite wisdom gave us these things, these "feelings." What was he thinking?
Take anger. Everybody's always talking about how it's ok to feel it, but you gotta be careful about acting on it. In other words, don't act on it. Plan first. Revenge or assassination, which has 2 asses in it. Seriously though, anger. When is this a desireable thing? Ok it's good that we were pissed at King George and his minions, 'cause without that anger we wouldn't have had The Greatest Nation on Earth. Greece.
Sorry, I can't get serious about anger. It's a total waste of time. And it hurts. And if you say well it teaches you lessons, surely I could learn them without the pain of anger. Or fear. Or desire. Or disorientation/dissociation. Or love.
Is love even a feeling? I loved that chocolate ice cream the other night. But that love wasn't a feeling, was it? It just was pleasure. Pleasure. Now there's a feeling I could get into. But if I had the choice, I'd go Borg as it were. The pleasure is just not worth the pain, anger, fear, rage, envy, frustration, exhaustion, psychedelic god-knowledge.
Some of these are feelings right?
You feel me?
I'm for flatline. And I don't care if nothing gets accomplished. Beethoven's 1st is his best anyway. And so was Willis Alan Ramsey's. And St. Francis and St. Augustine and Talmudic scholars and Rumi were all way smarter than anybody living today.
And I just don't picture any of them feeling at all. Except Willis of course. 'Cause I know him.

If this line of thought bothers you, I am sorry. But not remorseful.
There's a word for this version of me. That word is sociopath. But it is not a word often if ever applied to me. Many people call me friend, good guy, christian man, honest, hard-working, reliable. Some idiots call me brilliant, but they're just joshing.
Actually I am a sociopath. And I am skipping down a so-so path. And I will get to the end.